The 41-year-old recently won the Outstanding Lead Actress in a Miniseries or Movie trophy for her role as prosecutor Marcia Clark in The People v. O.J. Simpson: American Crime Story, but confessed she hasn’t even watched the show herself.
“I’m in this new kick of never watching anything I do anymore. I haven’t watched O.J., I didn’t watch my Sally (on American Horror Story: Hotel). I haven’t watched Season 6 (of American Horror Story) so far ” she told Vanity Fair.
And the actress cites her role as Clark in the critically-acclaimed drama series as the reason behind her decision to steer clear of watching herself on screen.
“It started with (playing) Marcia (Clark), it started with the O.J. thing,” Sarah explains. “It was the first time in my career where I really felt such an onslaught of complimentary, effusive reactions to the show itself and to my work on it, that I started to get very nervous about my typical way of watching something and ripping it to shreds when it’s my own work.
“(So) I thought, What would happen if you didn’t do that this time, and you just let it be what it is and don’t attach your own feelings to it, and let it stand on it’s own, and just enjoy people saying nice things? What if you do that instead?” she added.
Sarah has been in Hollywood for 22 years, but it’s only after her Emmy win in September (16) she feels she finally belongs in the acting industry.
“As an actor, you’re always afraid that you don’t belong, especially when you keep getting let into rooms that you’re not sure you should be in, with more people that you respect and admire,” she told Variety magazine after nabbing the gong. “You say to yourself quietly, ‘I hope they don’t realise that they let me in here and make me leave.’ Somehow, standing there with all of those people, their reaction made me think that I belonged.”
